I always thought that after getting married a guy would never break my heart again.... My mom always warned me not to have my husband so high up because he's human and will let me down... (this was when we were dating and I was blindly in love... lol). She never warned me that I had to protect my heart from the other man that would come into my life and absorb my world. My son!!!
From the moment I found out I was pregnant I knew without a shadow of a doubt that I was carrying a boy. I had my little girl and now I was pregnant with my son. Its not that I love him more... its that I quickly learned that the love a son has for his mother is different then anything else. I have 4 children and only one of them is a boy.
Growing up he was a mamas boy and would proudly tell the world. Im sure if you were to ask him he would still say " yea and". He would get out of the car and come open my door. If I was sad he would do everything he could to make me happy... and when he speaks everyone listened.
And then out of nowhere.... he became a teenager...…
Growing up he was a mamas boy and would proudly tell the world. I'm sure if you were to ask him he would still say " yea and". He would get out of the car and come open my door. If I was sad he would do everything he could to make me happy... and when he speaks everyone listened. r me... and my world crumbled around me. It was all in slow motion and all I could say was I'm not going to get mad I'm not going to throw a fit...…… and I was outwardly holding it together, but he pushed my last button by saying a smart remark thinking he was funny...… I snapped and I don't think I had ever thrown a fit like that my whole life. All that was missing was me throwing myself on the floor and start kicking and screaming. You should have seen it. I was really shocked on how hurt I was... My son apologized , but I was on a tantrum roll... I told him I didn't wanna talk to him any more. So he left my room.
I very rarely loose control of my emotions. What the heck is going on!!! Why didn't anyone warn me how spoiled I had become. I sat back and realized that I was acting like my 4 year old.... but why didn't anyone warn me how hard it is to let go. Why don't I get like that with my oldest daughter. Why? because she is my shadow. Where I go she goes I have never felt like she was growing up without me. I guess I never felt like she had a life without me. She tells me everything.
He comes to me the next day and says mom do you still love me... I said yes of course Im just a little hurt by how you talk to me, and he started singing LOVE ME LOVE ME SAAAY THAT YOU LOVE ME..... How in the world does one stay mad at that!!! LOL
He's one of the loves of my life. All my kids are my life, my husband is my world and I am one blessed woman who is spoiled more than she realized lol!!!!
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